Mika - I see you
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I'm standing, across from you
I'm standing, across from you
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I'm standing, across from you
And dreaming, of the things I do
I don't speak...
You don't know me at all
You don't know me at all
For fear, of what you might do
I say nothing.. But stare at you
And I'm dreaming...
I'm trippin' over you
I'm trippin' over you
Truth be told. My problem's solved
You mean THE WORLD to me, but you'll never know...
You could be cruel to me, while we're risking the way
That I see you. That I see you
That I see you...
That I see you...
Conversations? Not me at all
I'm hesitating.. Only to fall
And I'm waiting,
I'm hating everyone...
I'm hating everyone...
Could it be, you fell for me?
And any possible similarity?
If its all, how would I know?
You never knew me at all..
But I see you
But I see you
But I see you
But I see you..
But I see you..
I'm standing, across from you
I've dreamt alone.. Now the dreams won't do
I'm standing, across from you
I've dreamt alone.. Now the dreams won't do
But I see you..
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This one's for you Big Guy..
The more I've tried to say it.. The more I can only remain, hushed..
Scared that things between us as they have been... Turn for the worst.. And end up losing you, as always...
What a loser I am huh? Heh... I know that...
But if you just...
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This one's for you Big Guy..
The more I've tried to say it.. The more I can only remain, hushed..
Scared that things between us as they have been... Turn for the worst.. And end up losing you, as always...
What a loser I am huh? Heh... I know that...
But if you just...
- Location:Home without you
- Mood:
sad - Music:Mika - I see you
Sigh.. A little over 30 and still.. I feel in my 18's... or 20's...
"Your humanly forced conception of mature behaviour according to lifetime is indeed.. WRONG"
I'm just out of my bud .P
I feel fresh, eager and energized as if I've just been born.
And even though i'm now very fond of ties and jackets, still won't trade my sneakers for leather shoes.
NEVER!
"Your humanly forced conception of mature behaviour according to lifetime is indeed.. WRONG"
I'm just out of my bud .P
I feel fresh, eager and energized as if I've just been born.
And even though i'm now very fond of ties and jackets, still won't trade my sneakers for leather shoes.
NEVER!
So once again, this doesn't feel like they said it would. Guess one's age lies in one's mind, not in one's skin.
- Mood:
giddy
Heh! The day some were claiming to come. The day some others didn't ever want to come.
But mostly, the day we all thought it wouldn't come, has arrived.
Yes I'm a fan, and regardless of whatever his personal life was about. As an artist. His music, dancing, performance and starmade self was undeniably beyond other stars.
Even today, there are literally no other artist than can match him. In that perfect bond of different visual talents on stage.
The passing of giant in world media history. I personally will miss him and his music. I was expecting a last album from him. One I could hear him perform while alive but it seems, that might never come.
As it marked my life since I was a kid, as all of my generation. And pop music today as i keep listening to "new" stuff, is still pretty much what he brought from his roots thru his style.
Enough has been written about him. So let's not over do it.
I'm gonna miss him on TV and the new stuff i never got to hear.
And regardles of the million posts of love and hate that are out there allready. I owe him good memories attached to his songs and it's fair that I thank him.
And regardles of the million posts of love and hate that are out there allready. I owe him good memories attached to his songs and it's fair that I thank him.
Rest in peace (finally some peace) Michael Jackson
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It's gonna be ODD to live in a world where he ain't somewhere doing something...
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It's gonna be ODD to live in a world where he ain't somewhere doing something...
- Mood:
thankful
Life certainly blows this year.
I might lose my job.. Perhaps.. Myriam is not pleased with the office crew and surely stop covering our asses. The Dean will surely cut some heads off. And since i'm not quite in the payroll, it's most likely that mine's gonna roll down the stairs.
My artwork has gone up fast in visual quality.. But their lacking a soul to show. Looks like the same pasty thing over and over again..
I'd trade this graphic power for real artistic inspiration, or poetic composition to show, anytime. Because i can't get things outta my head anymore.. And they're eating my peace, driving me insane at night.. And that is no good coz i can't sleep, thinking on how to get it out...
My old project was "delayed", not to say "cancelled" as my asian buyer chickened out hahaha... It seems that the economic debacle is taking it's toll in the far east as well as in here.. He says that he'll gather up for 2010 but I know he's allready setting a new project with an artist I just so happen to know well.. Ooh back stabbed .D
But honestly, I'm wishing this artist i know makes it instead of me.. I just so happen to like him and we're friends after all. Maybe once he hits it, he can lend me a hand? And if not well, it was the SCOUT'S thing to do.
Hell!! Even 2 of my asian artists friends are being doublecrossed like me. It's so unfair to them.
Mother's not getting a lot better, day by day she just walks that hall, down.. She doesn't want to trust any doctos anymore and if that goes, well WTF.. Gonna have to force her to do it? She'll hate me for it but it's the only way.
"Regio" got back in my life a while ago, he's been the same kid he's always been. Same old failed dreams, same old attitude flick. Nothing new, just homemade porn and a powered up need to keep young. It's uncomfortable seeing him like this but, he's entitled to live his life as he desires, right? Still wondering if I'm really a bitch, or just a poser. Heh.. Wonderful little traditions.
I've kicked some of my "friends" out of my life. Many reasons attached, many sad endings to go with. My contact list, phonebook and RL bonds keep getting smaller. I'm at 40% of my social life as before and still going down.
Those of my remaining friends are leaving me as well. Perhaps i'm being a bitch to them but as much as I think i'm trying hard to smile and get along, the more they seem to be irked at my presence, i don't get why, I can get to feel guilty of pushing the away somehow but i swear i'm being as nice as I can in these moments, what am I to do? Clown around to please them when i barely have self sustaining battery life?
And you! Wuffy you should know better than just stare at me with your unamused mug like yer the only one that's got it so hard. From all the posers I know, i thought you were a tad more real. I'm so dissapointed of you...
Since my outspoken, art depression. Many, many guys have "fallen in love" with me.. Sending me letters, questions, and even open love proposals. Ranging from art infatuation, to deep poetry, skank flirting and even a couple who speak or ETERNAL DEVOTION... What?
"Let's date, yer a great artist" "Let me love you, you're a great guy" "i love you, you are beautiful" and all..
I feel flattered, i feel humbled and thankful but... I can't just go "OH SURE, LET'S" when i barely know any of them. Most of all, I've been thru this so many times before, it's all a fleeting infatuation and in no time.. Love just died and i'm left with a "oh um.. Let's just be friends k?"
I'm so not going thru those games again.
My ex and I are still friends.. I'm happy that things could settle down to this and not end up hating eachother. My heart tells me that I should ask him if we're still feeling for eachother, as I know I do... But that would just be poking a wound that is supposed to heal and shut. I got so many regrets and owe him lots in my heart. I'm still puzzled on how should I proceed.. But it seems that "personal space" works fine for us.
Mr. India represents everything i wanted in a guy, except that it seems.. He's not "that" interested in me.. "Yeah you're SO HOT Ado, yeah you're awesome, yeah you COULD be exactly what I need, yeah maybe...."
Perhaps he's not into me at all.. And I'm beggining to wonder if he is interested in anyone. Or even cares to place his feelings on someone. Yet my heart tells me to cool down, he just got out of a failed relation and perhaps he's still fixated on that lost love. That would make him even more precious as he's true to his feelings. But it hurts a bit, just a bit that I can't represent anything to him. I even question myself if I can call myself his "friend", if he even cares.... Heh.. I'm such a picker... lol
Not to mention the stupid and ridiculous level of expenses i'm having... Not only in daily life, but my car is practically living of my liver. It just doesn't fix.. I hate this shithole town where NO ONE, and I MEAN NO ONE knows their own jobs.. This place is crowded with improvisation and fake capabilities. Thiefs..
All i have lately is my job, my art, and my family.
No friends, no love, no leisure or anything fun.
But most of all... Even tho I'm alone, almost broke, taking care of the ill, uninspired/slump/frustrated and practically on the verge of psychosis...
I feel numb. I'm not crying, i'm not sighing, i'm not even looking down.. My eyes are stuck forward. I feel nothing.
I'm not sure if being numb and emotionless about it is actually better than being sucked down to the crying hole...
But i can't even DARE to analyze it.. I'm scared shitless to face it. I'm trying hard to keep looking forward, like a driven doll.
So, for now.. Walk on. I'm walking on. I'm hoping things get a tad better before I look back and the shit train catches up with me.
Walk walk walk Ado, walk...
"It doesn't matter, coz i'm packing plastic.
And that's what makes my life, so fucking fantastic"
-Lily Allen
I might lose my job.. Perhaps.. Myriam is not pleased with the office crew and surely stop covering our asses. The Dean will surely cut some heads off. And since i'm not quite in the payroll, it's most likely that mine's gonna roll down the stairs.
My artwork has gone up fast in visual quality.. But their lacking a soul to show. Looks like the same pasty thing over and over again..
I'd trade this graphic power for real artistic inspiration, or poetic composition to show, anytime. Because i can't get things outta my head anymore.. And they're eating my peace, driving me insane at night.. And that is no good coz i can't sleep, thinking on how to get it out...
My old project was "delayed", not to say "cancelled" as my asian buyer chickened out hahaha... It seems that the economic debacle is taking it's toll in the far east as well as in here.. He says that he'll gather up for 2010 but I know he's allready setting a new project with an artist I just so happen to know well.. Ooh back stabbed .D
But honestly, I'm wishing this artist i know makes it instead of me.. I just so happen to like him and we're friends after all. Maybe once he hits it, he can lend me a hand? And if not well, it was the SCOUT'S thing to do.
Hell!! Even 2 of my asian artists friends are being doublecrossed like me. It's so unfair to them.
Mother's not getting a lot better, day by day she just walks that hall, down.. She doesn't want to trust any doctos anymore and if that goes, well WTF.. Gonna have to force her to do it? She'll hate me for it but it's the only way.
"Regio" got back in my life a while ago, he's been the same kid he's always been. Same old failed dreams, same old attitude flick. Nothing new, just homemade porn and a powered up need to keep young. It's uncomfortable seeing him like this but, he's entitled to live his life as he desires, right? Still wondering if I'm really a bitch, or just a poser. Heh.. Wonderful little traditions.
I've kicked some of my "friends" out of my life. Many reasons attached, many sad endings to go with. My contact list, phonebook and RL bonds keep getting smaller. I'm at 40% of my social life as before and still going down.
Those of my remaining friends are leaving me as well. Perhaps i'm being a bitch to them but as much as I think i'm trying hard to smile and get along, the more they seem to be irked at my presence, i don't get why, I can get to feel guilty of pushing the away somehow but i swear i'm being as nice as I can in these moments, what am I to do? Clown around to please them when i barely have self sustaining battery life?
And you! Wuffy you should know better than just stare at me with your unamused mug like yer the only one that's got it so hard. From all the posers I know, i thought you were a tad more real. I'm so dissapointed of you...
Since my outspoken, art depression. Many, many guys have "fallen in love" with me.. Sending me letters, questions, and even open love proposals. Ranging from art infatuation, to deep poetry, skank flirting and even a couple who speak or ETERNAL DEVOTION... What?
"Let's date, yer a great artist" "Let me love you, you're a great guy" "i love you, you are beautiful" and all..
I feel flattered, i feel humbled and thankful but... I can't just go "OH SURE, LET'S" when i barely know any of them. Most of all, I've been thru this so many times before, it's all a fleeting infatuation and in no time.. Love just died and i'm left with a "oh um.. Let's just be friends k?"
I'm so not going thru those games again.
My ex and I are still friends.. I'm happy that things could settle down to this and not end up hating eachother. My heart tells me that I should ask him if we're still feeling for eachother, as I know I do... But that would just be poking a wound that is supposed to heal and shut. I got so many regrets and owe him lots in my heart. I'm still puzzled on how should I proceed.. But it seems that "personal space" works fine for us.
Mr. India represents everything i wanted in a guy, except that it seems.. He's not "that" interested in me.. "Yeah you're SO HOT Ado, yeah you're awesome, yeah you COULD be exactly what I need, yeah maybe...."
Perhaps he's not into me at all.. And I'm beggining to wonder if he is interested in anyone. Or even cares to place his feelings on someone. Yet my heart tells me to cool down, he just got out of a failed relation and perhaps he's still fixated on that lost love. That would make him even more precious as he's true to his feelings. But it hurts a bit, just a bit that I can't represent anything to him. I even question myself if I can call myself his "friend", if he even cares.... Heh.. I'm such a picker... lol
Not to mention the stupid and ridiculous level of expenses i'm having... Not only in daily life, but my car is practically living of my liver. It just doesn't fix.. I hate this shithole town where NO ONE, and I MEAN NO ONE knows their own jobs.. This place is crowded with improvisation and fake capabilities. Thiefs..
All i have lately is my job, my art, and my family.
No friends, no love, no leisure or anything fun.
But most of all... Even tho I'm alone, almost broke, taking care of the ill, uninspired/slump/frustrated and practically on the verge of psychosis...
I feel numb. I'm not crying, i'm not sighing, i'm not even looking down.. My eyes are stuck forward. I feel nothing.
I'm not sure if being numb and emotionless about it is actually better than being sucked down to the crying hole...
But i can't even DARE to analyze it.. I'm scared shitless to face it. I'm trying hard to keep looking forward, like a driven doll.
So, for now.. Walk on. I'm walking on. I'm hoping things get a tad better before I look back and the shit train catches up with me.
Walk walk walk Ado, walk...
"It doesn't matter, coz i'm packing plastic.
And that's what makes my life, so fucking fantastic"
-Lily Allen
- Location:Same old laptop...
- Mood:
numb - Music:Lily Allen - The Fear
NOW IS THE TIME
Don't forget Adrian
Don't forget Adrian
- Mood:
disappointed
And then:
tora says:
I start the credit union job on monday. .3
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
The new job? .(
tora says:
It's not actually a bank, it's called a credit union
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
I've been with them for 5 years so I get to work with the lovely ladies i've banked with all this time .D
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
.3
tora says:
I'm not used to you doodling so much
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
You don't usually draw messages on MSN as much
tora says:
And why does your food keep changing, I thought you were on a diet? .P
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
Food
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
*munch* .T
tora says:
What kind?
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
What is the stuffing? .P
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
*licks your face*
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
Gochisousama deshita .D
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
I start the credit union job on monday. .3
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
The new job? .(
tora says:
It's not actually a bank, it's called a credit union
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
I've been with them for 5 years so I get to work with the lovely ladies i've banked with all this time .D
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
.3
tora says:
I'm not used to you doodling so much
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
You don't usually draw messages on MSN as much
tora says:
And why does your food keep changing, I thought you were on a diet? .P
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
Food
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
*munch* .T
tora says:
What kind?
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
What is the stuffing? .P
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
*licks your face*
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

tora says:
Gochisousama deshita .D
ºAlpha FUGLY - Failed Transgender ChimaeraºThe Weekend was PooAnd so are youSad Boy writes:

- Mood:
giddy - Music:Gummibär - Cho Kakao
- Mood:
amused - Music:(That Lily Allen song)
OOOOOOOH SNAP!!!
That does it lady!
That does it lady!
- Mood:
murder
----- Shine-
8 O'clock
Time to wake up
Morning shower
A lil' make up
Yellow Dress and a WaterMelon Smiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile .D
----- Julie-
Julie's moving away, leaving her friends
Her home and family
So tired of bearing the rain and listening to the same
Pretending sugary pop stars
So Julie open your heart
There is no sense in protecting it
You'll be a beautiful Star (yes, a groovy one)
Now drink some strawberry juice and free your mind
----- La gran mentira- (The Big Lie)
I keep inside my heart, a huge work of engineering
A colossal creation, that I've been building all thru my lifetime
And it's likely that today, the stars might line up
And the condition is right, to start showing it's blueprints
It's a monumental TETRIS
Which is lacking only one piece
A sensational piece that is
The biggest and most complex one
----- Bubblegum-
Your Glance was an ELECTRIC FLASH
I saw you chewing BUBBLEGUM
You're like a tropic flock of clouds
Pop, you were a sound. POP!
Rainbow Bottled Sparkling Light
Beep, you were a sound. BEEP!
Mirrorballs and SugarCubes
So, that's how I fell in love with you
----- Vull-saber hot tot de tu- ( I want toknow everything about you)
I want to know everything about you
Be part of your life
Memorize your memories and search what you lived thru
I want to have everything of you
The Tears and the Smiles
To learn your truths and traces your lies
To know every second, every detail, every micron
And give you my life
----- In Love-
I've fallen in love, with a boy I just met today
He's so pretty, he's so beautifully dressed
I look at myself... And I wish I was someone else..
Someone who could catch his eye, with just a wink
But I'm not that cute... And I got nothing to say...
Nothing to share... No money to pay the rent..
So, what can I do to make him mine?
Somebody help me... Help me now
----- En noches como la de hoy ( In nights like tonite )
I know that you like to play it hard, you're an authentic SuperStar
So frail, so cold, so deceiving, so introverted
How would i LOVE to take you out to dance
If i just know how make you react
Hermetic. You show up so hermetic
Sad, hyperstatic boy. In the way you look at me
Synthetic. Among the crowds you turn mimetic
You turn out to be Electric. That without wanting it I fall in love again
----- Galletas ( Cookies )
A ray of sun has shined again
Right inside my heart
There's something better
Than everything that was there, before
Not sure you know that, I no longer love you
That I don't even miss you at all now
And even tho you think, that I lost my time
I have built myself a world on a ray of sun
And the best part is that in the end
There is always a song, that I can sing along
And create my dreams, that will erase your memories
And hide my little fears, that used to haunt me
I can walk again this city, stepping on the dry leaves
And having cookies
----- Me gustas ( I like you )
It's been some days since I've noticed something different in your eyes
But I'm still nervous when you call me
When I'm with my friends, you no longer ignore me
Could it be? That you have changed for real?
That you might want to be with me?
It's not impossible! That you might be looking my way!
Look, I like you and.. I know that time.
Will make you see that really, I'm not that ugly .(
I'm kinda funny. A little nervous.. I think?
How could I ever convince you, that I'm your secret heartthrob?
---- Chicos Malos ( Bad Boys )
You no longer like me... And thats why you go..
It's not fair you know? I couldn't even start..
And here I was, wanting to invite you go skating with me
Swim with me, fly with me..
And tho you prefer them badboys
And the unrestrained type boys
I'm going out tonight, i'm going to start to be
The one that is there in your memories every sunrise
You no longer live in my dreams, today I laugh and have fun
Coz now, i'm dancing with the badboys
And I hypnotize them
-----
And an extra
----- Bagman
8 O'clock
Time to wake up
Morning shower
A lil' make up
Yellow Dress and a WaterMelon Smiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile .D
----- Julie-
Julie's moving away, leaving her friends
Her home and family
So tired of bearing the rain and listening to the same
Pretending sugary pop stars
So Julie open your heart
There is no sense in protecting it
You'll be a beautiful Star (yes, a groovy one)
Now drink some strawberry juice and free your mind
----- La gran mentira- (The Big Lie)
I keep inside my heart, a huge work of engineering
A colossal creation, that I've been building all thru my lifetime
And it's likely that today, the stars might line up
And the condition is right, to start showing it's blueprints
It's a monumental TETRIS
Which is lacking only one piece
A sensational piece that is
The biggest and most complex one
----- Bubblegum-
Your Glance was an ELECTRIC FLASH
I saw you chewing BUBBLEGUM
You're like a tropic flock of clouds
Pop, you were a sound. POP!
Rainbow Bottled Sparkling Light
Beep, you were a sound. BEEP!
Mirrorballs and SugarCubes
So, that's how I fell in love with you
----- Vull-saber hot tot de tu- ( I want toknow everything about you)
I want to know everything about you
Be part of your life
Memorize your memories and search what you lived thru
I want to have everything of you
The Tears and the Smiles
To learn your truths and traces your lies
To know every second, every detail, every micron
And give you my life
----- In Love-
I've fallen in love, with a boy I just met today
He's so pretty, he's so beautifully dressed
I look at myself... And I wish I was someone else..
Someone who could catch his eye, with just a wink
But I'm not that cute... And I got nothing to say...
Nothing to share... No money to pay the rent..
So, what can I do to make him mine?
Somebody help me... Help me now
----- En noches como la de hoy ( In nights like tonite )
I know that you like to play it hard, you're an authentic SuperStar
So frail, so cold, so deceiving, so introverted
How would i LOVE to take you out to dance
If i just know how make you react
Hermetic. You show up so hermetic
Sad, hyperstatic boy. In the way you look at me
Synthetic. Among the crowds you turn mimetic
You turn out to be Electric. That without wanting it I fall in love again
----- Galletas ( Cookies )
A ray of sun has shined again
Right inside my heart
There's something better
Than everything that was there, before
Not sure you know that, I no longer love you
That I don't even miss you at all now
And even tho you think, that I lost my time
I have built myself a world on a ray of sun
And the best part is that in the end
There is always a song, that I can sing along
And create my dreams, that will erase your memories
And hide my little fears, that used to haunt me
I can walk again this city, stepping on the dry leaves
And having cookies
----- Me gustas ( I like you )
It's been some days since I've noticed something different in your eyes
But I'm still nervous when you call me
When I'm with my friends, you no longer ignore me
Could it be? That you have changed for real?
That you might want to be with me?
It's not impossible! That you might be looking my way!
Look, I like you and.. I know that time.
Will make you see that really, I'm not that ugly .(
I'm kinda funny. A little nervous.. I think?
How could I ever convince you, that I'm your secret heartthrob?
---- Chicos Malos ( Bad Boys )
You no longer like me... And thats why you go..
It's not fair you know? I couldn't even start..
And here I was, wanting to invite you go skating with me
Swim with me, fly with me..
And tho you prefer them badboys
And the unrestrained type boys
I'm going out tonight, i'm going to start to be
The one that is there in your memories every sunrise
You no longer live in my dreams, today I laugh and have fun
Coz now, i'm dancing with the badboys
And I hypnotize them
-----
And an extra
----- Bagman
If you ever had to eat me? .3
Where would you start with? ,)
Which part would you eat? .)
The first one, Oh the first one? .D
- Mood:
flirty - Music:Guille Milkyway - Bubblegum
Him..
He just keeps popping back into my life
And he's always there
Sometimes edgy, sometimes warm
Sometimes hateful, sometimes adorable
Sometimes hurting me, sometimes healing me
And he's there... and there.. and there..
Everytime I try to see what I feel for him, even tho he's so far from me.. I dare not to look anymore.
What are we? Are we, friends?
Are we, lost lovers, or some kind of venturously sick affair?
Are we, in love... Are we, not?
Words we don't dare to say.. Patience that's wearing thin..
I feel deranged, wrecked in some far off place when he's in my mind..
Like in an island, with a vast, sunsetting ocean of unknown directions..
Warm and cozy in the twilit breeze of his memories, that slowly gets colder as the night falls.
I loose sight of anything and I rather forget untill the sun rises again
And still feel alone even tho he's there..
I am not expecting ANYTHING this time... I don't want to expect
I don't feel like it.
-----
-----
This love
This love is a strange love
A faded kind of day love
This love
This love
I think I´m gonna fall again
And even when you held the hand
It didn't mean a thing, hmm
This love
This love
Now it hurts to say love
Doesn´t know it is love
This love
This love
Doesn´t have to say love
Doesn´t need to be love
It doesn´t mean a thing, oh
This love
This love
This, strange love, strange love
This Love
This love, this love
This strange love, strange love
This Love, I think i'm gonna fall again
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I don't wanna fall again
He just keeps popping back into my life
And he's always there
Sometimes edgy, sometimes warm
Sometimes hateful, sometimes adorable
Sometimes hurting me, sometimes healing me
And he's there... and there.. and there..
Everytime I try to see what I feel for him, even tho he's so far from me.. I dare not to look anymore.
What are we? Are we, friends?
Are we, lost lovers, or some kind of venturously sick affair?
Are we, in love... Are we, not?
Words we don't dare to say.. Patience that's wearing thin..
I feel deranged, wrecked in some far off place when he's in my mind..
Like in an island, with a vast, sunsetting ocean of unknown directions..
Warm and cozy in the twilit breeze of his memories, that slowly gets colder as the night falls.
I loose sight of anything and I rather forget untill the sun rises again
And still feel alone even tho he's there..
I am not expecting ANYTHING this time... I don't want to expect
I don't feel like it.
-----
-----
This love
This love is a strange love
A faded kind of day love
This love
This love
I think I´m gonna fall again
And even when you held the hand
It didn't mean a thing, hmm
This love
This love
Now it hurts to say love
Doesn´t know it is love
This love
This love
Doesn´t have to say love
Doesn´t need to be love
It doesn´t mean a thing, oh
This love
This love
This, strange love, strange love
This Love
This love, this love
This strange love, strange love
This Love, I think i'm gonna fall again
-----
I don't wanna fall again
- Location:@werk
- Mood:
confused - Music:Sarah Brightman - This Love (Cocteau Twins cover)
Easy living,
killed the young dudes,
in the high boots
Teenage,
in the pace age,
that's when love burns,
now it's your turn.
Fascination
Fascination
It's just the way we feel.
Fascination
Fascination
It's just the way we feel. (yeah)
We love this exaltation (woh oh, o-o-oh)
We want the new temptations (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
It's like a revelation (woh oh, o-o-oh)
We live on fascination.
Passion,
is our passion,
in the moonlight,
on a joyride
Easy living,
killed the young dudes,
in the high boots. (oh yeah)
Fascination
Fascination
It's just the way we feel (come on).
We love this exaltation (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
We want the new temptations (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
It's like a revelation (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
We live on fascination.
Fashion is our passion
In the moonlight on a joy ride
He said , let them
killed the young dudes,
in the high boots
Fascination
Fascination
It's just the way we feel (come on)
We love this exaltation (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
We want the new temptations (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
It's like a revelation (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
We live on fascination.
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
Fas-ci-na-tion!
We love this exaltation (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
We want the new temptations (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
It's like a revelation (woh oh, o-o-o-oh)
We live on fascination (o-oh).
Say the word now (fa-sci-nation)
Say the word
Come on say the word now (fa-sci-nation)
Come on (fa-sci-nation)
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Thx ladylad, this made my day!
- Location:@iTush
- Mood:
rejuvenated - Music:AlphaBeat - Fascination
....
niñoperro juez glam dice:
..You should act your age, and stop all that "Who I'm fucking" "Who sucks me off" shit you know? I thought you were looking for something BIGGER, something BETTER for you.
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
Oh please
You're the one giving me a lecture now? .P
niñoperro juez glam dice:
So, if you think that there's nothing big left for you... Why don't you SHOOT YOURSELF, coz your stealing a dreamer's air.
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
"SHOOT YOURSELF, coz your stealing a dreamer's air"
For once, you've honestly hurt me...
niñoperro juez glam dice:
good..
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
But I'll act "My age" this time.. And I will NOT answer all the things I'd like to say to you right now .3
niñoperro juez glam dice:
So you're just a poser huh? :3 Or are you really looking for something good yourself?
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
As if YOU would know... .3
niñoperro juez glam dice:
I dunno..
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
You, of all people...
niñoperro juez glam dice:
I'm just trying my luck..
niñoperro juez glam dice:
I just hope you search, and fight for what you really want... And that other person you love.
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
Yah.. THX...
-----
Been a while since something hurt me like this... Good job there kid, really .3
niñoperro juez glam dice:
..You should act your age, and stop all that "Who I'm fucking" "Who sucks me off" shit you know? I thought you were looking for something BIGGER, something BETTER for you.
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
Oh please
You're the one giving me a lecture now? .P
niñoperro juez glam dice:
So, if you think that there's nothing big left for you... Why don't you SHOOT YOURSELF, coz your stealing a dreamer's air.
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
"SHOOT YOURSELF, coz your stealing a dreamer's air"
For once, you've honestly hurt me...
niñoperro juez glam dice:
good..
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
But I'll act "My age" this time.. And I will NOT answer all the things I'd like to say to you right now .3
niñoperro juez glam dice:
So you're just a poser huh? :3 Or are you really looking for something good yourself?
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
As if YOU would know... .3
niñoperro juez glam dice:
I dunno..
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
You, of all people...
niñoperro juez glam dice:
I'm just trying my luck..
niñoperro juez glam dice:
I just hope you search, and fight for what you really want... And that other person you love.
ºAlphaஐ1-UP- (L) Adoro GTO.... nah... .P dice:
Yah.. THX...
-----
Been a while since something hurt me like this... Good job there kid, really .3
- Location:@iTush
- Mood:
irritated - Music:A*Teens - I promised myself
----
Baby I will soon be leaving
and I know that you are feeling down
But every week I'll send a letter
To let you know my love will never change
I promise you I'll always feel the same
So remember in your heart
Baby when we are apart
There is no need for crying
Cuz even if I am
Halfway 'round the world
That won't stop me from loving you
Halfway 'round the world
I'll Still be feeling the way I do
And now I wanna hold you baby
Cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy
Even if I'm halfway 'round the world
Baby when the miles are growing
You and I will still be going strong
No matter what your friends are saying
Don't give up on what you're waiting for
Cuz one day I'll be knocking on your door
So remember in your heart
Baby when we are apart
There's no need for crying
Cuz even if I am
Halfway 'round the world
That won't stop me from loving you
Halfway 'round the world
I'll Still be feeling the way I do
And now I wanna hold you baby
Cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy
Even if I'm halfway 'round the world
"If I could you know that I would find a way
To stay for good but I must go now
I wanna hold you baby
cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy even if I'm..."
Halfway 'round the world
That won't stop me from loving you
Halfway 'round the world
I'll Still be feeling the way I do
Now I wanna hold you baby
Cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy
Even if I'm halfway 'round the world!
----
Sigh...
A Sigh, is a Kiss that vanishes in the air, from it's anxiety to reach you..
And absence, is a hole in oneself in the shape of yours..
But i'm still smiling.. And so must you 'v'
Baby I will soon be leaving
and I know that you are feeling down
But every week I'll send a letter
To let you know my love will never change
I promise you I'll always feel the same
So remember in your heart
Baby when we are apart
There is no need for crying
Cuz even if I am
Halfway 'round the world
That won't stop me from loving you
Halfway 'round the world
I'll Still be feeling the way I do
And now I wanna hold you baby
Cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy
Even if I'm halfway 'round the world
Baby when the miles are growing
You and I will still be going strong
No matter what your friends are saying
Don't give up on what you're waiting for
Cuz one day I'll be knocking on your door
So remember in your heart
Baby when we are apart
There's no need for crying
Cuz even if I am
Halfway 'round the world
That won't stop me from loving you
Halfway 'round the world
I'll Still be feeling the way I do
And now I wanna hold you baby
Cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy
Even if I'm halfway 'round the world
"If I could you know that I would find a way
To stay for good but I must go now
I wanna hold you baby
cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy even if I'm..."
Halfway 'round the world
That won't stop me from loving you
Halfway 'round the world
I'll Still be feeling the way I do
Now I wanna hold you baby
Cuz I'm gonna miss you like crazy
Even if I'm halfway 'round the world!
----
Sigh...
A Sigh, is a Kiss that vanishes in the air, from it's anxiety to reach you..
And absence, is a hole in oneself in the shape of yours..
But i'm still smiling.. And so must you 'v'
- Mood:
nostalgic - Music:A*Teens - Halfway 'round the world
Your eyes
----
Looking in your eyes
I can decypher the universe
This soft wind blowing
The blue in the sky
At last I get it..
That this world keeps spinning
And that one day I might die
But by yourside..
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
That in this story
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Time doesn't exist
Coz in your arms
I've reinvented
The Universe
At last I get it!
That the past
And the future
Only exist today
And I love you
-----
Viendo tus ojos puedo
Descifrar el universo
El viento suave
El azul del cielo
Al fin lo entiendo..
Que este mundo gira
Y algun dia he de morir
Pero contigo...
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Que en esta historia
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
No existe el tiempo
Porque en tus brazos
Reinvente
El universo
Al fin lo entiendo!
Que el pasado
Y el futuro
Solo existe hoy
Y yo te amo
-----
Belanova - Tus ojos
----
Looking in your eyes
I can decypher the universe
This soft wind blowing
The blue in the sky
At last I get it..
That this world keeps spinning
And that one day I might die
But by yourside..
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
That in this story
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Time doesn't exist
Coz in your arms
I've reinvented
The Universe
At last I get it!
That the past
And the future
Only exist today
And I love you
-----
Viendo tus ojos puedo
Descifrar el universo
El viento suave
El azul del cielo
Al fin lo entiendo..
Que este mundo gira
Y algun dia he de morir
Pero contigo...
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Que en esta historia
Oooooooooooh Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!
No existe el tiempo
Porque en tus brazos
Reinvente
El universo
Al fin lo entiendo!
Que el pasado
Y el futuro
Solo existe hoy
Y yo te amo
-----
Belanova - Tus ojos
- Mood:
thankful - Music:Belanova (feat Coti) - Tus Ojos
- Mood:
giddy - Music:Capsule - Sugarless Girl
I just realized 2 important facts of life:
1)The Nintendo Wii, is the most ELUSIVE CREATURE in GOD's Creation....
I've got 4 GREAT DEALS on it, all of them gone due to public demand..
But anyways..
2)The Starbuck's BlueBerry Muffin is LOVE, in it's purest form..
If happiness has a FLAVOR, it MUST taste like that!
The Muffin extends, Life.
The Muffin expands, conciousness.
The Muffing is Vital, for Space Traveling,
The Muffin... Must.. Flow..
- Location:@werk
- Mood:
curious - Music:Rihanna - Lemme get that (HUH!)
- Mood:
LOL - Music:Ad
Who can say where the road goes?
Where the day flows?
Only time..
And who can say if your love grows?
As your hearth chose
Only time
Who can say why your heart sighs?
As your love flies
Only time
And who can say why your heart cries?
When your love lies
Only time
Who can say when the roads meet?
That love might be , in your heart?
And who can say when the day sleeps?
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....
Who can say if your love grows?
As your heart chose
Only time
And who can say where the road goes?
Where the day flows
Only time
Who knows?
Only time
Who knows?
Only time
-----
And what will become of us when all the bees are gone?
When the truth speaks and our dreams come?
Yeah... Only time...
Where the day flows?
Only time..
And who can say if your love grows?
As your hearth chose
Only time
Who can say why your heart sighs?
As your love flies
Only time
And who can say why your heart cries?
When your love lies
Only time
Who can say when the roads meet?
That love might be , in your heart?
And who can say when the day sleeps?
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....
Who can say if your love grows?
As your heart chose
Only time
And who can say where the road goes?
Where the day flows
Only time
Who knows?
Only time
Who knows?
Only time
-----
And what will become of us when all the bees are gone?
When the truth speaks and our dreams come?
Yeah... Only time...
- Mood:
nostalgic - Music:Enya - Only Time
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
Tora: There will be no violence in my Bday, I allready told you that betch
Craig: says:
But i have soooooooo much of it inside me
Craig: says:
So its either tea violence or sword violence
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Tea Duel Mode: ON
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*GreenLeaf Thrust
Craig: says:
*Earl grey shield
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
OMG!! Good Move!
Craig: says:
Dont even try to defeat me in a tea duel
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
Grrr
Craig: says:
Hehe
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Orange Pekoe Beam
Craig: says:
*Speed of Darjeeling
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
Adrian uses "PRINCE OF WALES CHARM"
*it's SUPER EFFECTIVE!!
Craig: says:
*Craig is paralized*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Adrian uses "Chamomille therapy"
*Recovers 15HP
Craig: says:
*Craig is still paralized*
Craig: says:
*Uses Chailixir*
*HP fully recovered*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
Grr!
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Adrian uses "English Breakfast Stench"
*...It's not very effective
Craig: says:
*Craig uses cheap tea and cold water*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
D. !
Craig: says:
*Seems super effective*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Adrian fainted @^@
Craig: says:
Do de de do da de do de daaaaa!!
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
That was low man!! I mean, CHEAP TEA?? D.<
Craig: says:
YES! Got it from the crappy corner shop down the street
Craig: says:
lol
Tora: There will be no violence in my Bday, I allready told you that betch
Craig: says:
But i have soooooooo much of it inside me
Craig: says:
So its either tea violence or sword violence
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Tea Duel Mode: ON
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*GreenLeaf Thrust
Craig: says:
*Earl grey shield
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
OMG!! Good Move!
Craig: says:
Dont even try to defeat me in a tea duel
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
Grrr
Craig: says:
Hehe
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Orange Pekoe Beam
Craig: says:
*Speed of Darjeeling
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
Adrian uses "PRINCE OF WALES CHARM"
*it's SUPER EFFECTIVE!!
Craig: says:
*Craig is paralized*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Adrian uses "Chamomille therapy"
*Recovers 15HP
Craig: says:
*Craig is still paralized*
Craig: says:
*Uses Chailixir*
*HP fully recovered*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
Grr!
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Adrian uses "English Breakfast Stench"
*...It's not very effective
Craig: says:
*Craig uses cheap tea and cold water*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
D. !
Craig: says:
*Seems super effective*
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
*Adrian fainted @^@
Craig: says:
Do de de do da de do de daaaaa!!
ºAlphaMiiºSHIBUYA-KEI FOREVER!!Preferimos soñaaar says:
That was low man!! I mean, CHEAP TEA?? D.<
Craig: says:
YES! Got it from the crappy corner shop down the street
Craig: says:
lol
- Mood:
amused - Music:Do de de do da de do de daaaaa...

